Between Appear and Disappear

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a memoir by
Doug Rice

Photographs by Doug Rice. Music by Ann Moss.

A Favorite Book of 2013″

“An unforgettable and perfect book”
–Lidia Yuknavitch

“The blood of Mai’s ancestors run through her syllables. She takes photographs of sentences she abandoned in childhood—that loss of memory, that theme of what photography exposes. Written in the breath of a man in love, a novel, a poem, a photo album, this delirium of river language is finally a treatise on writing. ‘Her breath remains in my mouth.’ She told him the Vietnamese legend of a story that never begins, darker than any darkness when her family pushes their unsteady boat into the water. They fear arriving as much as they fear drowning. ‘Every word is a goodbye.’ She escapes sentences. Her body lay against him like moonlight. Doug Rice has written a beautiful-beyond-words American River.”
—Sharon Doubiago, author of My Father’s Love, Love in the Streets, and Hard Country

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“Between Appear and Disappear is a secular prayer, a body prayer, between seeing and saying, between experience and representation. It
is the only book that I have ever read in my life that is truly corporeal, which is to say truly embodied by and through desire in language.
I will hold it close to my heart for the rest of my life. Kind of I wanted to eat it. Definitely I slept with it under my pillow. It is an unforgettable and perfect book at a time when we need books to be
 exactly what they are, gloriously, unapologetically, mercifully, real.

—Lidia Yuknavitch, author of The Chronology of Water and Dora: A Headcase


Soprano Ann Moss is an ardent and acclaimed champion of contemporary vocal music who performs and collaborates with a dynamic array of American composers. Her high, silvery, flexible voice has been singled out by Opera News for its “beautifully pure floated high notes” and by San Francisco Classical Voice for its “powerful expression.” In addition to working closely with well-known composers such as Aaron Jay Kernis, John Harbison, Jake Heggie, Wayne Peterson and Eric Sawyer, Ann seeks out and performs works by new and emerging voices at forums, festivals and concert series across the USA. September 2013 marks the release of her debut CD “Currents,” produced by multiple Grammy Award-winner Leslie Ann Jones and recorded at Skywalker Sound, a Lucasfilm, Ltd., company. “Currents” features a dream team of collaborators from the chamber music, new music, and jazz communities performing some of the extraordinary new and recent American vocal/chamber music Ann has championed over the past decade. A native of Boston and a graduate of the Longy School of Music and San Francisco Conservatory, Ann Moss is the co-founder and artistic director of the San Francisco-based group CMASH (Chamber Music Art Song Hybrid). She has been a featured performer with Earplay, Other Minds Festival, Eco Ensemble, Fresno New Music Festival, New Music Works, FENAM, Sanford Dole Ensemble, Composers in Red Sneakers, SF Lyric Opera, Oakland Symphony Chorus, California Bach Society, the Ives String Quartet and the Alexander String Quartet, among others. Ann has served on the faculty of CSU Summer Arts Composer/Performer Collaboration Workshop and has lectured on vocal composition at MIT, UC Berkeley, UT Pan America, Sacramento State, CSU Los Angeles and Cosumnes River College.